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Love Letter-A Renunciation

I wrote about being with you and my fingers decided to mention something from a parallel universe where you and I made a connection, where you and I live and I wonder when that connection will leave us. When there are no more points to the pointed obvious. And suffering in this world will end with me being alone as I have seen it my whole life. You need to hold me to keep me. Loving you will not be easy for me because boredom takes place and I forget who I have become without you. This is the opportunity that I have taken from you. An experience, I always want to touch other people and that seems irrelevant when I smile at you. I am lost within the confides of what is going on and I cannot understand why I am not alone. I detached from you as though I was not human yet you seem not to notice as I touch you awkwardly for some time mentioning things like your laziness and not wanting you inside me.
The voice at the other end of the phone is not my girlfriend and I walk out side wondering when you will notice that I have from you-to-me-to-you-to-someone else. And I cry at night because latching on is what I have become. Safety is what I am looking for, not the emptiness of nothing. I have become bored within my universal wondering and I can not breathe right now. So I wait patiently without you for the next step of life that should be taking me somewhere alone.

That night seemed thick and when I smelled you I saw nothing but the times we have spent alone and lonely and I wondered when you were going to leave me too. I can not look anymore into the future without seeing you and I become scared at night when I can not hear you breathing and so I wait patiently.